Numb and spiritually isolated.
Party/drug culture and loneliness [although I have a number of friends] is all I seem to understand.
The more I learn about and understand the political/social condition of society, and of the globe; the less I feel I understand. When: everything is corrupted by authority and the thirst for power, everything is for profit and is pretty much a lie, everyone is afraid of change and accepts the feeling of powerlessness against the system, the world is a real dystopia and the exact opposite of what my heart desires it be… How do I understand that which makes no sense? How am I supposed to live with inequality all around me? Why is apathy so fucking easy for everyone else; in a world of pain and misery empathy is my torment.
Above all else, I don’t understand why we want to suffer alone. Instead of comforting each other and expressing solidarity as we all struggle against power we share in our suffering by inflicting it upon others.
It’s confusing and a struggle: I am a libertarian communist, and at the same time, I feel so isolated from the social. I don’t see anger in anyone, just sadness and paranoia. Where is the rage against injustice? Is dark cynical humor that much more comforting than rage leading to action?
Nihilistic thoughts make me wish to destroy everything and all of this meaningless pain; in the least to destroy myself before authority and the system lays claim to my defeat.
This numbness… perhaps a sign of me being defeated…
I am suffering in the heights; living in my ideals of a better world, a world whose roots in the real I’m beginning to hardly no longer see. A head in the clouds and among the tallest trees, with a body crucified to concrete.
I don’t belong in your society. I don’t belong in a world of masters and slaves. I don’t belong in capitalism.
I wish I wasn’t human. The embarrassment and shame is too much.
I wish I didn’t feel so alone.
Live in the future
Marx’s 11th thesis on Feuerbach: “The philosophers have only interpreted the world in various ways; the point is to change it.”
After reading “The Dispossessed by Ursula K. Le Guin,”, I’ve discovered a new perspective…
Carpe diem (Seize the day), YOLO (you only live once), are both sort of saying live in the moment. The only thing that exists is the present. Many philosophers and persons offering advice to feel happy, emphasize this.
To understand someone, we seem to always ask people about their past and learn about their character through the present. Many persons I know, however, seem to neglect understanding a person in terms of their future; understanding a person through their intentions and aspirations.
I’m starting to believe that the future; how we anticipate the future, our aspirations and goals for the future, are far more important than who we are in the past or in the now.
The whole concept of “living in the now,” is seemingly an extension of believing we have no future, or an expression of our anxieties.
What matters more than anything is the future we are moving towards. Today we are alive, this present is apparently all we have which has been shaped by our past. When we look at a human life in terms of a whole story, we recognize that today is merely a step along the path towards a future destination or in other words, towards an outcome of significance.
I say, “live in the future.” Discarding just viewing the future by your anxieties of potential negative outcomes, you recognize that there are an infinite amount of potential outcomes. The future is unwritten. The future, and the limitless possibilities of our limitless imagination, is inherently liberating, and brings us closer towards freedom.
Most of our lives is directed towards a sense of security, a stable job, marriage and a loyal partner etc. However, security and stability is false promise. It can be easily lost. In one second, everything can change. The monotonous forced order upon our lives is detrimental to our mental well-being. The only thing we can ever be sure of; things will change. Life is merely things changing us, and more importantly, how we change things.
If you want to get to know someone, instead of first asking about their past, ask: where they want to be in X years, their vision of an ideal world, their personal ideal life. We are forced to struggle for a wage, and to live in the now on weekend nights.The world would be far more interesting if more of us lived in the future; in our dreams, in walking towards our dreams.
I say, “live in the future.” We can’t always control how we survive, or our lives now, but we have control over how we want our lives to be; our dreams and ideals. Something that can never be taken from you.
When people come together, to reach a shared dream, it becomes reality. Therefore, share your future with others. One day it will be the present, a gift to you… “Paradise is for those who make paradise.”
What Is Anarchism?
— Bruce Lee
Indeed: Who says anarchy, says negation of government; who says negation of government says affirmation of the people; who says affirmation of the people, says individual liberty; who says individual liberty, says sovereignty of each; who says sovereignty of each, says equality; who says equality, says solidarity or fraternity; who says fraternity, says social order.
By contrast: who says government, says negation of the people; who says negation of the people, says affirmation of political authority; who says affirmation of political authority, says individual dependency; who says individual dependency, says class supremacy; who says class supremacy, says inequality; who says inequality, says antagonism; who says antagonism, says civil war; from which it follows that who says government, says civil war.
Yes, anarchy is order, whereas government is civil war.